The Thing with Feathers That Perches within the Soul

If hope is truly a thing with feathers, let mine be a falcon with me as the falconer as I once again “hunt” for an answer as to why I’m sick and what is actually causing said sickness. This hunt has been going on since 2016 when I could no longer ignore that I wasn’t “getting better” but worsening inch by stolen inch feeling more and more like I have a kind of chronic flu.

The Conundrum of Failure Despite Success

I’ve written about Imposter Syndrome – something I was cursed with as are a lot of people. So, Bonnie… why are you writing about it again? Easy, I’ve been given some seriously amazing chances that only come once in a lifetime, and I’m terrified of them. Yup. I’d like to blame my 20+ years as […]

Depression, Depression, Go Away, and Never Return Any Day

I’ve talked about PTSD here… MANY TIMES. One thing that I haven’t really discussed is the anxiety driven depression. Couple that with hypervigilance, whoo wee…. what a heady brew that keeps me from wanting to join the world! Recently, we had some financial issues come up that genuinely TERRIFIED me. We’re talking uncontrollable shaking, thought […]

Borderline Personalities in the Family

In 2005, I was diagnosed as Bipolar Mixed – Rapid Cycling, and it sure looked like that was the right diagnosis. Mania and Hypomania are exclusive to Bipolar Disorder, and I was all over the map with Mania in September of 2005. What wasn’t known at the time was that my brain chemistry was and […]

How Meditation Found Me

Recently, I saw a post on facebook in a music fan-group for TOOL. Someone reached out… Someone whose story sounded like something from my own past… Someone I related to and wanted to help knowing I just might be able to help along their path… Anxiety and I know each other very, very well. In fact, […]

“PTSD! Thou Art a Heartless Bitch”

I talk about PTSD on another page here titled ‘Dysfunction Junction’. On that page is where I explore the “HOW” it came about, but I’d like to talk about something else. What it’s like living with it and how it likes to peek out and remind me that it’s still there like TODAY. First things […]