The Conundrum of Failure Despite Success

I’ve written about Imposter Syndrome – something I was cursed with as are a lot of people. So, Bonnie… why are you writing about it again? Easy, I’ve been given some seriously amazing chances that only come once in a lifetime, and I’m terrified of them. Yup. I’d like to blame my 20+ years as […]

Depression, Depression, Go Away, and Never Return Any Day

I’ve talked about PTSD here… MANY TIMES. One thing that I haven’t really discussed is the anxiety driven depression. Couple that with hypervigilance, whoo wee…. what a heady brew that keeps me from wanting to join the world! Recently, we had some financial issues come up that genuinely TERRIFIED me. We’re talking uncontrollable shaking, thought […]

Borderline Personalities in the Family

In 2005, I was diagnosed as Bipolar Mixed – Rapid Cycling, and it sure looked like that was the right diagnosis. Mania and Hypomania are exclusive to Bipolar Disorder, and I was all over the map with Mania in September of 2005. What wasn’t known at the time was that my brain chemistry was and […]