An Open Letter to Classroom Teachers

Dear Teachers, Congrats on choosing the most important job in the world – the shaping of young minds. One such young mind, myself, is pictured here in my first selfie in 1984. It was totally accidental on one of those old 35mm cartridge cameras. I love the red tongue from the sugar-free popsicle I was […]

Depression, Depression, Go Away, and Never Return Any Day

I’ve talked about PTSD here… MANY TIMES. One thing that I haven’t really discussed is the anxiety driven depression. Couple that with hypervigilance, whoo wee…. what a heady brew that keeps me from wanting to join the world! Recently, we had some financial issues come up that genuinely TERRIFIED me. We’re talking uncontrollable shaking, thought […]

I Can’t Save You if You Won’t Help

We all know someone that could use some help, but what do we do for someone that always needs help but isn’t willing to change their situation? I’m talking about someone that seems to be in a perpetual sense of crisis, always needs to be bailed out, but isn’t willing to do the work to […]

I’m late! I’m late… for a very important…

… GRIEF? I’m late for grief? So, do I grieve wrong – or some other such nonsense? Yes. And, No. Really what this is all about is this long crying jag I had in the car today on my way home from the doctor’s office. Ah, the doctor’s office – home of all stressors! I had […]

Borderline Personalities in the Family

In 2005, I was diagnosed as Bipolar Mixed – Rapid Cycling, and it sure looked like that was the right diagnosis. Mania and Hypomania are exclusive to Bipolar Disorder, and I was all over the map with Mania in September of 2005. What wasn’t known at the time was that my brain chemistry was and […]

In Fertility or Infertility?

On this little piece of the internet that I call mine, I talk about some pretty heavy, personal stuff. This post is no different. So, here it goes… I like to blame myself for things that I have no control over. Considering that control over anything past one’s actions and words is illusory, a colossal […]

How Meditation Found Me

Recently, I saw a post on facebook in a music fan-group for TOOL. Someone reached out… Someone whose story sounded like something from my own past… Someone I related to and wanted to help knowing I just might be able to help along their path… Anxiety and I know each other very, very well. In fact, […]

The Unfairness of Whatif

“Who says life is fair? Where is that written?” – The Princess Bride – That’s been my mantra for years. I remember Mema taking me to the movies to see The Princess Bride. I loved it! And, I just dated myself. Ah, well. So, when Grandpa (played by Peter Falk) said that quote about fairness to the […]

Out of Order

  In October of 2013, I noticed that I was getting very tired for no apparent reason. Now,  it’s February of 2014… and it’s only gotten worse. Sudden exhaustion hits with no notice. In fact, last night? I went to bed at 8:00 PM – ON A SATURDAY NIGHT. In fact, I’ve missed a LOT of […]